Monday, February 15, 2010
As a mother...
I picked up good old Dr. Brazleton's Touchpoints. I was just flipping through and got to a part about spacing children and planning a family. hahaha. I laugh because he says to keep in mind your own engergies and tolerances (both of which I did not have much). Looking back, my little charlie was forced to become independent and grow up really fast. I turned my back on him and felt angry toward him because I didn't have the energy to nurture Mary Kate. I was not able to enjoy this rich period of learning and exploring for charlie, instead when he tested me, I got angry and frustrated. Which then became part of his personality.
I have spent the past year trying to undo and model tolerance for my little man. Recently, N and I have agreed to keep him on a strict diet of no preservative, artificial colors or flavors. I don't know if it is postive cooperative energy from N and I, the affects of healthy food and limited snacks and treats, or an overall focus on Charlie's well being... but he has turned a corner. He has less outbursts of frustration, he sleeps through the night and is overall more calm. He is a cool and smart little guy that I love more than anything!
As far as having my children close together, it is what it is. At this point, they have become playmates and enemies at times, but I have more energy and tolerance to deal with them both. I only hope that no permanent damage was done.
Posted by Teacher Kristy at Monday, February 15, 2010